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Thursday, February 12, 2009

On to a New Chapter

McKenzie has had several 180 turn arounds this week, which led us to figure out her problem. The medication for her ear was making her vomit. So, with new meds starting yesterday, she is doing well. This morning, she was happy and smiley and my baby again. She hasn't vomitted at all today, so her cath is still on for tomorrow.

They don't plan on doing any procedures during this cath, just injecting dye and seeing how the blood is circulating, getting accurate measurements of the size of the pulmonary arteries, the shunt, etc, and taking other measurements. If some of the collaterals appear too big, they may try to coil them off (insert a spring into the vessle, which will clot and shut off the collateral). Once they get a good picture of what McKenzie's heart and circulatory system are doing right now, they will confer and decide the next steps. We've been told to anticipate that they would use this cath to plan her full-fix surgery.

I have been an emotional roller coaster all day, waiting to hear whether they would go forward with the cath despite the week of vomitting. I want this to happen so that McKenzie can get well, but I don't want to think about what they have to do to her or the risks involved. This cath is the beginning of the next surgery and that scares me. All of the emotions from a year ago have returned, plus a lot more since I know McKenzie's personality now and we went through so much more than I planned on the last time. I'm afraid it will be another instance of weeks on the vent and months in the hospital, where her life will hang in the balance. I don't ever want to walk in a room again and hear doctors say they are losing her. I know she is a lot stronger now, but it doesn't stop the worries. So, I keep trying to tell myself that we just have to make it through the next couple of months, and then maybe McKenzie will start to REALLY get better.

Please keep our precious, precious baby in your thoughts tomorrow.
Mel

7 Message(s)


Posted Feb 12, 2009 6:05pm
I will be praying for you all. Sending you all my thoughts and prayers
Nicole

Posted Feb 12, 2009 3:57pm
You can count on me for prayer.. I will lift you all up!! All I can say, is that you are NOT ALONE!! I know that doesn't change your fear, but I hope it can give you a little comfort!!
Susan
cp: SweetHaleyMae

Posted Feb 12, 2009 3:38pm
I will be praying...and hugs, I understand every word you say...been there and praying for no complications, good news and a quick recovery. Hugs, Kim and baby Will

Posted Feb 12, 2009 3:03pm
I will be thinking of you and praying for you tomorrow and always.
Laura and Lily
cp: lilygrace2

Posted Feb 12, 2009 2:30pm
I can't even to begin to understand all the thoughts and emotions you are going through right now. Seems like McKenzie is ready for a new start. I know your faith will see you though this, just as it has before. As always, I'm keeping all of you in my prayers and positive thought.

Posted Feb 12, 2009 1:42pm
we're thinking of you all!
love, rojelio, annie & lucia

Posted Feb 12, 2009 1:41pm
Sending prayers...
For Mckenzie's cath tomorrow. You will be in our thoughts.
~Stephanie and Braeden(HLHS)
cp: babyhusted

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